Friday, August 19, 2011

Phew!


I have to tell you I'm a SO glad I finally spilled the beans:)

First off--thank you for all of your love and kindness. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I read each comment more than once and I was so touched. People may comment on "online friends," but I have no doubt that there's a lot of real love and compassion out here on the Net.

And now I'm very excited to be able to share what I've been thinking about for the past 3 months! Not to mention the approximately 8 billion baby layouts I've created around my assignments:) (Not to worry though, this won't be one of those baby only blogs! I always like to keep a mix:)) But for today, there's just a little more baby stuff ahead.

Back on June 2, I went to the city early to take a blood test and find out if our treatment had been successful. Later on that day, I was on the train home when my doctor called and asked if I was sitting down. If you were one of the people looking at me, annoyed, while I shouted "Are you sure? Are you sure?" repeatedly into my cell phone, then now you know why! I waited to tell S in person when he got home that night.

I set the table up all nice: (Although, in my first official act as a pregnant woman, I neglected to make dinner!)


And made a little card with the relevant information inside.


I got some donuts to celebrate (because what's a celebration without donuts, right?):


And after he stopped saying "No, you're not!" and "Are you sure?" repeatedly, we took some happy self-portraits:

It was one of the most special days of my life. After two years, 8 Clomid cycles, countless injections and mountains of pills, my dream was now my reality. It took a while to sink in, and there are days now where it still doesn't feel real.

After one of my first ultrasounds, I created the layout below. One of the things that surprised (and scared) me about pregnancy was how much I loved this particular baby, and not just the fact that I was having a baby.

This scares me because when you love someone, especially when that someone is a 5-weeks-along fetus, the potential for loss is absolutely terrifying. I'm so grateful to be at 14 weeks right now and still pray constantly for a healthy baby in February.


I love this layout, because it's basically my heart bled out on paper. And thank you all again for being part of this continuing journey with me!

And a scrappy question for you: What's your favorite aspect of YOUR OWN work?

34 comments:

  1. Congratulations! Fav aspect of my work? Sometimes it is simply the pic. LOL!

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  2. Congratulations to both of you!!!! How very exciting!!!! Your page is lovely and I hope you make another one about how you shared the news too ;)
    I am very happy for you!

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  3. Beautiful - thank you for sharing so much - it truly is a treat to watch and remind me of these similar moments I experienced with my babies. ((hugs)) And also thank you for expressing beautifully the love for the one in your tummy, because you said it perfectly. It changes focus to the specific one you have growing inside, not just the act of being pregnant which is what everyone outside of you sees and experiences. I know from having lost one at 13 weeks, that you do love them specifically, and a part of me always considers the loss one of my children as well even though I never met them. Thank you for treasuring that now and saying so. You are clearly a beautiful soul. You touched my heart reading today.

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  4. I just want to say I love how you tagged the post "bunny". Too cute!

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  5. People may comment on "online friends," but I have no doubt that there's a lot of real love and compassion out here on the Net.

    I know I feel the same way. Not asking it to be returned, but you're one of the people I feel "closest" to of all the scrappy people :)

    That card is just perfect! I love it! And I'm still very happy for you :)

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  6. Congrats and hugs again (from one of those cyber friends)! Love the celebratory donuts (are those Entamann's? Hard to find them here...doing a total Homer drool). Good luck counting down to Feb! Favorite aspect? capturing a story or a part of it that I can share for generations to come! -Amanda

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  7. Congratulations! Your story echoes mine almost exactly. 8 clomid cycles here too and a four year wait but our gorgeous daughter Scarlett finally arrived on the 25th of February 2010. She was so worth the wait. I love your non cooking of dinner-start as you mean to go on!
    My favourite aspect of my page is recording our family story for my daughter to enjoy when she is older. She already loves looking at the scrapbook albums though ( under fairly strict supervision).

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  8. Beautiful Keshet - thanks so much for sharing this sweet story. I love your photos and your donuts dinner!

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  9. Your story puts a big smile on my face! I love your layout and I can't wait to see many more of your baby layouts!

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  10. Love reading your story Keshet. My best friend is expecting her baby in February. As I pray for her pregnancy I'll be praying for yours as well. What a blessing our children are. hugs girl! So excited for you.

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  11. Oh wow CONGRATULATIONS! I'm excited to see how your scrapbook this journey to motherhood!

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  12. Can't wait to see it all unfold!

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  13. Donuts for dinner sounds perfect to me! Love the layout! Keep the baby news coming!!!

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  14. Oh Keshet!!! I am SOOO happy for you. I know how long you have been wishing for this wonderful blessing. ((((((HUGE HUGS))))))) for you!! CONGRATS, CONGRATS, CONGRATS!!!

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  15. Beautiful layout! Love reading this post and thatnk you for sharing your journey with all of us. I'm so happy for you!!

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  16. This is amazing news Keshet!!! I am SOOOOOO glad for you, and I am praying for you to have a happy and healthy pregnancy and baby :) February is a great birth month, I'm an Aquarius, can you tell? Good luck, and I can't wait to see all your 'baby' inspired layouts!
    -Gabrielle from Savannah, TX

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  17. First of all, you are allowed to share as many baby and baby related layouts as you want-you've earned that right! :)
    My favorite aspect of my work is usually the story I'm trying to tell-whether that's through the pictures or the journaling just depends on the layout.

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  18. Grinning from ear to ear, my dear! So happy for you and your husband and now your new little family! I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers each day for a fabulous pregnancy and healthy delivery. How exciting!!! And I love the page you made to save this memory.

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  19. How wonderful! Congratulations to you and your husband. Prayers for a great and healthy pregnancy. Such happy news.

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  20. Oh Keshet I am tearing up reading your post, I am so, so happy for you.
    Lovely layouts to document your feelings perfectly.

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  21. What a beautiful page! And CONGRATULATIONS! Such wonderful, wonderful news. I'm also so impressed that you've shared your infertility journey via your blog. It took me a LONG time to open up about mine online. I couldn't be happier for you!

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  22. OH! OH! OH! My laptop broke and I am WAY behind on my google reader!!!! I am so happy for you!!!! Yay!!!!!!!!

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